Sometimes i wish the earth had stairs leading to another planet, so that i could make my way down and sit at one corner, just watching the earth spin round, and round, and round. In school when i face demoralisation or feel disheartened, all i could do is either hold back my tears or hide my face and let emotions run wild. That day after training, i was so upset but i couldnt afford to break down so i tried hard to let moodiness take over me instead of tears. And once everyone i knew was out of my sight, i revealed my true emotions. I cried on bus38, cried while walking in bedok inter, cried on bus225, sat down at my block's staircase and continued crying. I felt so awful, really awful. I tried to compose myself before reaching home so my mom wouldnt notice i had just cried. But when i reached the doorstep, tears started to form and swirl around in my eyes again. I hid my face, rushed to get my clothes and closed the bathroom door behind me. Spent an hour inside crying before starting to shower. So why on earth am i so upset over what had happened? Demoralisation seriously stabs one's heart and kills one's soul.

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6 Mar 10, 22:57
yunxiu: nt being recognised too! Ppl only tend to recognised those higher rank ppl,they tend to throw us aside,very frustrating,damn irritated.I'm hoping to step down soon.....
6 Mar 10, 22:56
yunxiu: lik crazy,studied lik crazy,in the end,N lvl result is worse than my prelim.Some ppl may tend to add salt in my wound. As for my cca,i contributed so damn much,in the end,what i've gotten was B3!i'm
6 Mar 10, 22:54
yunxiu: We're on the same boat! Firstly,u cn read my post on 3rdMarch and 6thMarch post. Im feeling exactly the same like you. I studied so hard for N lvl,in the end,i cant obtained 3distinctions! I memorised
Yea i wish i could step down immediately now. Was still looking forward to training last last week, now i realise no matter how involved im in i remain insignificant. High five then :) Hating the hierachy in ncc, high rank so what. Pushing us off the sides of the cliff only

6 Mar 10, 22:55
Derrickkk: Mmmmmm why so cross )))))))))))))))): Donwan see you liddat leii CHEER.UP.AS.SOON.AS.POSB!!
Trying, thanks :)

6 Mar 10, 21:43
(: liven up! It is not t end of t day yet, you have so much thing tt so many gal of your age dun have yaar!^^
6 Mar 10, 21:42
(: Heyyss dun cry ! I am Sure youre a brave gal, stay strong dun giveup! Studies can be done better, result can be improve , cca youll be quiting after few mnth to prepare for o level rights. So
Trying, thanks :)

6 Mar 10, 21:27
Yanin: The kindess and graciousness movement was ugh. Haha. :) Hey I totally understand how you feel about physics.
Haha :) I can bet i scored the lowest in class

6 Mar 10, 20:22
zijie: wei bu yao zhe me shen qi la! ur studies so much btr den us looh things wil get btr soon de kkkk cheeerrrr.:)
Trying, thanks :)

6 Mar 10, 18:55
Huiqing: baby , dont fcuk your life . )': if not i okaye heee smile not frown no more angry angry love youuuuuuuu <33333>
Trying, thanks :) Love you too ♥

6 Mar 10, 17:00
QIII:): DONT SAD ALRDY!!!!!!!!! D: IDK WHAT YOU GOING THRU BUT YOU MUST CHEER UPUPUPUPPUP NO MATTER WHAT!!!!!! Dont make me sad too:(:(:(:(:(:(
Trying, thanks :) Dont sad :(

6 Mar 10, 12:37
TKX: c ur blog like so happi, den sms u den noe u sadsad de gt so mani ting hapen... smilez k:):) muz b hapier den other wil b happi!:)
You trying to say smsing me's a good thing? Haha. Trying, thanks :)

6 Mar 10, 10:16
yunxiu: Yeahh okayy hahahhaha!! Yeahh it's sad that your ahgirl passed away :(
Yah :(

6 Mar 10, 09:01
Didi: haha wished u in 4 different ways :D so good right? lol jkjk, eeeeh cheer up cheer up,u always dont show ppl u sad, but u are D: gah smile :D
Haha yah la you the best. Trying, thanks :)

5 Mar 10, 23:28
' Ruishi !: th chance for CommonTest lur ! Haha :}
5 Mar 10, 23:27
' Ruishi !: You so lucky can be involve in chinqay luhr ! I wished i can , sounds so fun D; I do understnd atmosp. in teevee & in live are veh veh diffr wan . ;} Clever of you to take part never slip away th
Haha i know i am :)

5 Mar 10, 22:21
SIANG: rip to ur dear pet hamster! :D btw cheerup pls:(
I dreamt of her resting in peace :) Trying, thanks :)

5 Mar 10, 21:01
-: Right i know you are describing me. Nice one
Zz was referring to your best friend, since you're guilty of it i have nothing to say

4 Mar 10, 22:28
meng: hey ! so long never come . and i see my name in your post ! poor ahgirl of yours . your ahboy can live peacefully now ? haha !
I guess so hahaha

4 Mar 10, 21:51
WQ ♥: Whatthehell you & your sist act cute ahr chop that sign in the ground HAHAHHAH. Thou i sad for your beloved hamshter but cannot help laughing ;P
Haha cute no need act one :)