" The closer you are to somebody, the more intimate you are, the more you show your true self to that somebody, the greater the risk of you getting hurt by him/her. It’s the littlest things that hurt the most. The slip of tongue with simple words blurted out cuts like a newly made piece of blade – swift and sharp and deep into your heart. Small actions that only the person does evoke the worst in you – only the one person, only to you. The others are simply to blind to see. "

(/POST EDITED ON 17JAN)


PEEPS, IM BACK ^^v

I just realised im finally updating after two weeks. HAHA. Aiyo, i think i apologise until sian already. So this time no need. Will be update very unregularly ok try to adapt thanks lovely readers. :)


OKAY HOW TO START. LET ME TELL YOU, I'VE GOT SO MUCH THINGS TO TALK ABOUT I FEEL LOST. WORDY POST NOW, SORRY NO PICS. :)

Firstly is the SEC ONE ORIENTATION CAMP from 8-9jan , WOOOO!
It rocks ttm man, awesome.
Although i missed a day of school, although i missed the flag day, although i had to spend two FULL days in the camp, although i had to raise my blood pressure at times during the camp at the Sec1s, although i had to shout at the Sec1s till my throat sored,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
I STILL THINK IT'S ALL WORTH IT.
For the 20hours CCA points, for the leadership skills that have amounted in me, for the fun i had spent with 1E4'10, it was all worth the hard work. :)
I still remember how i started off feeling so shy introducing myself to the Sec1s. I still remember how worried i was at the beginning being the leader of the leaders. I still remember how badly i worked at getting the attention of 1e4. I still remember the time when i got so pissed off i shouted at them and they finally quietened down to listen to me. I still remember how i progressed to get along better with 1e4. I still remember how 1e4 started off so not-bonded and rowdy and 'hopeless' that i nearly gave up on them. I still remember how 1e4 started to bond more through games and cheers and became so enthusisatic as time went by.
YES, i remember practically everything that happened to me and 1e4 together with the student leaders. Especially when i was the leader of the leaders, i had to spend every single minute with the class even when the other student leaders had to go for CCA trial and all. I had to skip the cca trial, bring 1e4 around till my feet hurt and my throat sored cos it was so hard to gather them together to head for another cca. I had to constantly be the one giving orders, marking attendance etc. But i was glad i had to do all those, as they gave me the chance to remember their names, bond more with them! PLUS, 1e4 and i agreed that we did made a difference to their class. WE BONDED THEIR CLASS UP. During the campfire when Sion announced the awards for different classes, 1e4 knew they wouldnt win much as they started off so badly. But they thought they should win the best improvement award. They progressed so well, i thought so too. In the end they were awarded with the most well behaved award which i thought it was too fake, but it still cracked them up and made them all so happy. When Sweeyik gave other classes the cheers he taught 1e4, 1e4 got unhappy. How cute! I really have to thank all the student leaders of 1e4, especially Sweeyik who never failed to keep the spirits of 1e4 up by constantly leading cheers and funny(lame) claps, and also Xinying for helping me shout and get the attention of the class when i was too tired and couldnt shout anymore. Of course also to Vivienne Mengqian and Weishan whom i cooperated with to ensure everything went smoothly.


Here is a mail sent by Mr Desmond after the camp.

Dear Exco and UG leaders,

First of all, i would like to express my heartfelt thanks to all of you for your help in making this camp a success. We cannot deny that the camp is not perfect, but i am glad that i see the resilience in all of you for standing up to make yourself count and giving your best effort to improve the camp( i am sure you guys can see the difference in attitue of the Sec 1 on friday and saturday).

You all have done a great job, please do not forget that you guys and girls are only 14 and 15 years old. To be able to come up with a program like this and to be able to lead the camp or your respective classes, in my eyes is already a remarkable feat. Give yourselves a pat on your back!

Few years down the road, you may forget many things that happen in BVSS, but i am sure you will remember this camp, for it is what you guys have tolled and sweat for. NEVER forget the great fun we had during the trial camp, NEVER forget how you stood out in front of a crowd to lead and to make this Sec 1 camp a success! At the end of the day, we celebrate our friendship and camaraderie. During the camp, there will be unhappiness, there will be shouting and finger pointing, NEVER let this affect the bond that you guys have forged over the 3 or 4 years. Everything said and done during the camp was for the good of the camp, the camp is over, done and dusted... But please ensure that the friendship remains the same, if not...even STONGER than before!!

I must personally apologise for scolding and shouting at some of you. It is to ensure the smooth flowing of the camp, nothing personal. In fact i have forgotten who i scolded and shouted at... I hope you guys can be the same and take it positively :)

Lastly, to thank you effort the school not only set aside a sum of money for the comm treat, your efforts and contribution to the Sec 1 orientation will be submitted via the LEAPS form and reflected on your report card. You will be awarded CIP hours as well for the time and effort throughout the holidays...

Thank you... The camp will never be a success without you guys... THANK YOU SO MUCH!

Regards,
Mr Desmond Phoa

I loved the contents in his mail. HAHA. Totally agreed, totally the way i felt. Maybe the excos are unable to understand much, cos they didnt really get in contact with the Sec1s but to plan the camp and handle the logistics. I've enjoyed the time spent with the Sec1s, and i truly hope they had too. Although i didnt really get to communicate much with the guys as they were noisy and difficult to talk to, i had little problems with the girls. :) Over the two days in the camp, more and more girls came up to me and asked me what my cca is as time went by, which made me feel so happy. :D Hoping they had chosen ncc as their first choice, cos i want 1e4 girls to be in ncc. ): Hehe. During and after the camp, the girls came to ask me for my hotmail for msn and facebook too, when i didnt think of that. HAHAHA. And now whenever i see the 1e4 girls anywhere i'll feel something i cant explain. :)

SO SO SO, MOVE ON. :D
What else had happened in school. Ah took height and weight. :D Grew 1cm taller and gained 1kg in weight! Hehehehe. Already quite happy. 2 more cm and 2 more kg to my ideal height and weight.
I want to take the PartAs this year but Ms Koh has already put me in charge of PartCs. ): How? Should i go and ask her for a change? This is so shitty. I enjoy teaching those younger ones new stuff. I feel more comfortable commanding newbies. I dont feel confident teaching the PartCs about Spec Course stuff cos i've forgotten so many things i've learnt. Wth. Really think i should change but i dont know how to bring it up to her. GOSH!

OH YEA, AND I'VE GOT TWO KAWAII HAMSTERS AT HOME! :D Given by my sis' friend, how kind. Those two fellas are constantly distracting me from schoolwork whenever im at home. Pictures up! They look alike fyi.

Today was the first Chingay training at KCPS. Had our groupings, was initially in 2-2 with Yingxuan (shall respect Cf's name) as we signed up only yesterday but was later put into 3-1 with the rest of the bedokviewans. 2-2 got two cute guys eh. Hahahaha. But nvm, better to be with everybody else i know. Hehehe. When our leader had us to intro ourselves while in a circle, i thought of the sec one orientation camp. I remember myself shouting in the noisy hall and my voice just vanished into thin air, just like the leader Hashima. Haha. When she explained the game 'Blow Wind Blow' and tried so hard to get us to play, i thought the camp too cos we got the sec ones to play that game too. So many things reminds me of the SOOC. Sigh sigh sigh. :P Lunched and shopped at Junction 8 with Yingxuan Jiayi Wanqi Anne Kelly Yijun after the training. :D Bought the same customised water bottle with Jiayi Wanqi and Anne for only 10 dollars! Hehe Jiayi kept saying she very happy. Got my sister's and somebody else's birthday presents too. These two ladies better be honoured cos i went around for very long just searching for their presents. :) Lucky got so many people accompany me. Teehee. Trained home with them and shopped at bedok inter's pasar malam with Yingxuan. Bused home and talked so much together until she forgot she had to rush home to go temple hahahaha.


Okay too many words, ending here! Anybody who read this whole post word for word, LOVE YOU MANY. :D

TAG REPLIES:

16 Jan 10, 23:05
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11 Jan 10, 00:32
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10 Jan 10, 22:57
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6 Jan 10, 18:38
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5 Jan 10, 20:19
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5 Jan 10, 00:01
QIII:): Another ultra-ly cute dog!!!!!!! XDD
YES! :D

Im sorry. No matter if you hadnt wanted this to happen or if you dont even mind/care what had happened, i still wished things hadnt turned out this way. I left you cos i feel that i shouldnt be sticking with you anymore, you shouldnt be sandwiched, and i dont like to seem like the friend-snatcher. Im the kind who would rather back out than to make somebody else look at me in that hatred way. Yea i lost you. I lost my great friend. It had to be this way, i didnt do it intentionally. I treated you as my treasured friend, the only thing is i dont know if you did so too. I still remember something i've always felt so miserable about which made me say that. Remember in Sec2 when i gave you a birthday present and you didnt? You forgot about my birthday and said you would give me double in Sec3. Although you remembered everyone else's, i didnt really mind. So in Sec3 still i chipped in for your present and yet again, you didnt get me my present. You didnt even wish me happy birthday. Days after you said it was common test week so you didnt have time to buy. Okay fine. So where's my belated present? You never even thought of buying me one. I didnt say anything, i didnt seem to feel anything. But right inside, i felt so awful, so miserable. Over the months still you bought for the others too. I didnt need you to buy a big present for me. All i wanted is sincerity, the love and care from my friend. How would you feel if you give your friend birthday presents for two consecutive years but she doesnt even return any? Hah, did you even care/remember? I hope this was the only thing you made me really upset about, cos those other minor stuff i've already put them to the back of my mind. Yet again, i still apologise for drifting apart from you. Now when we crack up together, it just feels so awkward, no more the kind of intimacy between us. I have to admit, i seriously feel sad.