YESTERDAY YESTERDAY :
Napfa 2.4km run. SUCKED, did badly this year. 14plus minutes when i actually ran 13 last year and was aiming for 12. ARGH. Still thought i ran faster than last year. Forget it. Nothing seems to go my way this year. I felt like giving up halfway through the run. HOW COME? I could still remember how i ran last year without a thought of giving up. I've seriously changed for the worse. Laziness's taking over me, every day i just feel like sleeping, sleeping and sleeping. Whatever. Felt a lil moody after that, jiayi tan cried): Felt like crying too but i've sweared not to cry in front of classmates. Took bus69 then willie senyang and people boarded the bus too. That was when my mood improved. They really cheered me up lah, haha. Said and did funny things. Fyi willie never fail to make me smile (!?) Reached home and as usual went to find junk food to eat to indulge myself. Was thinking of eating chocolates when durian appeared in the fridge. YAY! Ate a box and felt happier after that so called huiqing to chat. Talked for an hour and went to shower, had dinner, then weiliang called so talked on phone again ._. Then went off to rush homework.

YESTERDAY :
Left class at 12 for IMT SHOOTING! Used SAR21 instead of previous two years' M16. Loved it! Although it's heavier but it's so much easier to handle. And we did not have to prone, just stand in the foxhole. I finally got marksmen, WEE! :D So did the other 7 out of 12 people. While we were waiting for the bus after the test we shared jokes and riddles. A lot of them were really cute and funny i couldn't stop laughing. On the bus became ghost stories -.- Nice to hear lah, but scary leh omg, some ghost incidents actually happened to some of them. Then while waiting for dad with jolly she told me something that freaked me out. GOD LAH T.T

TODAY :
Class and ncc photo taking! :D I'm back to sitting for this year's class photo just like in sec1): Missed the feeling of standing last year. HAHAHA. For ncc i'm at the very back row! :D But the shortest there:X Heh. After school went library for health checkup, then blah blah blah. Quite a good day today, cause.. HAHA(:

P.S. Should i drop to combined science? I cant cope with triple sciences anymore. I just feel like giving up even though i know i shouldnt. I seriously dont know how to hang on. And and. I'm collapsing soon.


I miss you. But i just cant forget what you did. So many years of friendship, shouldn't you have understood me well enough? Tried so hard to forget what you did but how do i do that. Cry, what's the point. I still have to act on a brave front in school and i dont even know what you are thinking in your own school. I want to be like last time when i'm hyper almost every single day. But now i cant with schoolwork and studies and everything. Now plus you. Time is going off too quickly this year, i have to spend everyday laughing so that life in 2009 wont suck that much. But i cant do it anymore. When i keep quiet in school, i lose out. When my mind wanders off to you, i lose out. Signs of emoing. Do i have to? No, i dont want. I cant afford to do that in this rush year. I just hope i could forget everything and forgive you. Because i still miss you.