; br-eak th silence .

*cheered up . (:

shall post today. sorry didnt post about first day of school that time , really didnt have the mood.
woke up at 10 today , at around 1 went downstairs to kaki bukit cc to collect my edusave scholarship. almost forgot , phew. sian got 300 bucks only, two more levels to get 200 bucks more T.T regretted slacking so much. on my way home saw hweemin and raymond. hahas. then ate lunch and went to meet kenn , he keep want give me the christmas present he had prepared that time. so hung out together outside , walked around his house there neighbourhood. chatted alot , told him about my problem too. he gave me lots of advices , mostly crap. HAHA. thanks anyway. cheered me up alot , he's good at making me laugh. reached home at 5 , talked to (: on phone then went online a while. after that went out to eat dinner.

you make me so .. disconsolate . okay maybe not , it aint a word big enough to describe how i feel . i shouldn't be looking so crestfallen to let you see how weak i am to not be able to take in the words you say . and hey , look . i am only angry with myself for letting you fall into my heart , you idiot .